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Emma

Someone recently described this woman as having a “sunny disposition”, and although I have tried to epitomise her with my own words, I cannot; Emma has a sunny disposition and that is that. Nevertheless, I want to delve beneath those words and show why she is worthy of them.

She is a third year journalism student, a sushi fanatic and a laugh on demand.

“I wanted to be a journalist ever since I was seven, ever since I had a tour around TVNZ and watched Campbell Live on set. I remember sitting at THE table, and thinking, ‘Yep, I could do this’.”

Fast-forward to now, and seven year old Emma was right; she could and she has. Her articles have been featured by news sources such as Stuff, Newshub, & New Zealand Herald, with her most notable story of the year creating more controversy than Kylie Jenner’s lips. Continue Reading

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The Neverending Eating Disorder

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It has nearly been a year since I had an eating disorder. I cannot describe to you the exact moment I was cured, but in more ways than one, I would say that I am. I no longer refuse myself the nourishment of food, hinge my worth on weight, lock myself in my room, destroy relationships and loathe life.

Despite my achievements, there is one thing that has been immune to all antidotes; My mind. It has been scientifically proven that repeated behaviour causes certain neuron paths to become etched within the mind. That is what happened to me. Months and months of self-hatred and restriction slowly became normalised and now, even though I am recovered, I struggle to expel certain thoughts. Continue Reading

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New Zealand’s Mental Health System

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I wish with my entirety that I could endorse New Zealand’s mental health system. However, in doing so I would be lying and deception is not welcome here. This blog is without censorship and everything I write is based on personal experience and opinion. Therefore, I will hold nothing back when describing New Zealand’s most inadequate system.

‘Perpetuation’ is the word of focus. It is defined as making something longer or continuing it. As someone who has delved into New Zealand’s mental health system on more than one occasion, I believe that perpetuation is its rightful definition. People are diagnosed with illness and the system takes illness and makes it immortal.  Continue Reading

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The Savages of Eating Disorders

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As I sit here sipping my tea with biscuits at bay, I am reminded of a certain sorrow that tainted my livelihood not too long ago. To eat is to live and so when the act of consuming food becomes disordered, the potential for life is hindered. Today I witnessed a young woman be overshadowed by this illness. Her supposed hands were wrapped around a box of sushi. I use the word ‘supposed’ because her dear fingers could have been mistaken as tiny sticks ready to snap. I do not exaggerate. Her mouth and tongue were salivating over the close proximity to nourishment. Her eyes, if given the ability, would have swallowed the sushi whole. Everything in her being was screaming for the necessity that we call food. I wanted to cry. There’s no other way to put it really. I wanted tears to roll down my face and I wanted that animation of my sadness to persuade her to eat. However, she pushed the food away, a draining task in itself, lifted from the chair like a skeletal feather and returned to starvation. I pray for her because once upon a time… I was her.

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